February 2012
7 posts
If you have strong opinions about what I put on my blog, keep in mind it’s just that; MY blog. And that your opinion means but only so much to me. Especially, considering I never post anything offensive to anyone else. With that being said, here’s a suggestion - instead of leaving dumbass comments in my messages anonymously, say who you are so we can address whatever issue you have...
“It’s so hard to forget pain, but it’s even harder to remember sweetness. We have...”
– Chuck Palahniuk (via matrem)
Heartbeats fast. Colors and promises. How to be brave. How can I love when I’m afraid to fall? But watching you stand alone, all of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow. One step closer.
I have died every day waiting for you.
Don’t be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand years. I’ll love you for a thousand more.
Time stands still. Beauty in all she is. I will be brave. I...
“I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness and to have the...”
January 2012
12 posts
“My head is in a cloud of rain and the world just seems so far away; you are like...”
– Droplets - Colbie Caillat & Jason Reeves
“I am certain of nothing but the holiness of the heart’s affections, and the...”
– John Keats, in a letter to Benjamin Bailey (via wildfell)
“Lost opportunities, lost possibilities, feelings we can never get back. That’s...”
– Haruki Murakami, Kafka on the Shore (via venula)
If an angel came down to me, asked ‘what I would do differently?’ I would say nothing, you see, I love someone truly. And if I do not see tomorrow, you know it’s going to be alright.. ‘cause I got my baby, right by my side. And if the rain isn’t falling and the Sun isn’t shining, it makes no difference to me, I’m right where I want to be. If tonight is my...
“There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we...”
– John Lennon (via matrem)
People say hell is endless. They say it’s our worst nightmare. The face of our darkness. Whatever it is, I say hell is empty, and all the devils are here.
It’s hard to explain, but you can’t change the past. You can’t go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life would be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future; that’s a beautiful thing. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you’ll have...
This is a new year; 2012. Congratulations. If you’re capable of reading this blog right now, that means you’ve made it. You’re alive; still living and breathing. That has to be something to celebrate, right? After all, regardless of religious beliefs, who knows what’s in store for us after our hearts stop.
I’ve found that with every new year comes resolutions. Things...
December 2011
3 posts
“Because there’s nothing more beautiful than the way the ocean refuses to stop...”
– (via jerseygirlforlife)
Nothing in the world.
When you truly care for someone, you don’t look for faults. You don’t look for answers. You don’t look for mistakes. Instead, you fight the mistakes. You accept the faults and you overlook the excuses. The measure of love is when you love without measure.
“Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don’t know how to replenish...”
– Anais Nin (via lethalforthecity)
October 2011
6 posts
Sometimes when you’re young, you think nothing can hurt you. It’s like being invincible. Your whole life is ahead of you and you have big plans; to find your perfect match.. the one that completes you. But as you get older, you realize it’s not always that easy. And it’s not until the end of your life that you realize how the plans you made were simply plans. Because at the...
As I’ve grown up, I’ve learned several things. Life is full of disappointments and people you trusted will sooner or later let you down. I’ve learned that often those you love will love someone else and there’s only one way to fall – fast and hard. I’ve learned that out of thousands of smiles, it takes one to touch your heart. I’ve found that words can be deceiving but the truth always lies in a...
An angel flew before me and settled for a while; it showed me what I wanted and gave me reasons to smile.
An angel flew around me while circling my path; supporting my every step and teaching me to laugh.
An angel flew beside me and gave all I could need; when I fell in love with him, I finally believed.
I believed that I could make it, I knew I would succeed; I knew with him beside me.....
“Perhaps we give the best of our hearts uncritically to those who hardly think...”
Realistically, regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small, like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger, like when you let down a friend. Some of us escape the pain of regret by making the right choice; some of us have little time for regret because we’re looking forward to the future. Sometimes we have to fight to come to terms with the past, and sometimes we...
Have you ever heard the expression “the best things in life are free”? Well, that expression is true. Every once in a while, people step up. They rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny that way. It can push pretty hard but if you look close enough, you can find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song and in the eyes of someone...
September 2011
5 posts
I guess it’s easier to see what we want than to look for the truth. You see me as someone who has all the answers, but that’s not true. I may not always know what I’m doing but I do try to make things better. And when I make mistakes, because face it, we all do, I promise I’ll find it within myself to ask for help. I can’t do this alone, but if you’ll take a...
“There is no despair so absolute as that which comes with the first moments of...”
– George Elliot
Psalm 103:8-17
8 The Lord is compassionate and merciful, slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love. 9 He will not constantly accuse us, nor remain angry forever. 10 He does not punish us for all our sins; he does not deal harshly with us, as we deserve. 11 For his unfailing love toward those who fear him is as great as the height of the heavens above the earth. 12 He has removed our...
Soooooo I’m pretty much a beast and dion is the greatest person ever. I’m pretty sure he’s a super hero. Not the gay guy who flies around in tights and undies. I mean the legit super hero. I’m all googly eyed every time I see him. By the way this is definitely Beonka. Not dion. Buuuuuut yeah…#32 is the master and he’s better than me at everything.
I have this strong desire of one day becoming the best possible version of myself. I want to save lives. I want to physically be able to give another soul a second chance at prosperity. I want to be seen past my appearance. I want to be the reason behind someone being able to cry, smile or laugh again before it’s too late to show that kind of emotion anymore. I want to develop more stamina...
August 2011
5 posts
“For her, being without him was the same as forgetting how to laugh. It was that...”
Can’t sleep. So, I decided to write. I’m hoping it will help clear my head. There are two things in particular that are weighing pretty heavily right now. I guess I’ll go ahead and address them both indirectly.
- Words can’t express how deeply sorry I am for not being there when you needed me the most. Even if my efforts wouldn’t have made a difference, I should have...
“Because I don’t know who I am, who I am, without you. All I know is that I...”
– Missy Higgins
“Dear Dad, There is something I’ve been meaning to tell you. Remember a few...”
– Dear John
July 2011
7 posts
There are some things I don’t think people quite understand about me. I don’t expect much. I’m not a person who thrives off of seeing others fall in any way, shape, or form. I won’t judge. And I’m not here to belittle anyone. But if nothing else, know this. I recognize that we only have only one life to live. And as much as I’d like to say that I have long one ahead of me, waking up to see another...
There’s no shame in being afraid; that’s something everyone should realize. Hell, we’re all afraid. But I feel like the most important thing to do is figure out what you’re afraid of, because when you put a face on it, you can beat it. Better yet, you can use it.
Sometimes the thing you most want, doesn’t happen. And sometimes the thing you never expect to happen, does. I don’t know what it is. You meet thousands of people in this lifetime, yet it’s still very possible for none of them to really touch you. But then you meet one person, just one, and your life is changed forever.
Eventually the fast text message responses will...
“Thank you. And if I haven’t told you already, I appreciate you .. seriously. I love you with ALL of my heart. I am so thankful to have such a good friend like you .. forreal. Me and you understand eachother .. no matter what it is. It makes me feel better when I talk to you, and you just understand me. You’re an amazing person. Don’t ever let anyone tell you different. I look back on the dumb...
“You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains. You say...”
– William Shakespeare (via jerseygirlforlife)
I don’t know whats more unnacceptable; the fact that I find myself wanting to be alone these days more often than usual or how one of my biggest fears in life is that I actually will be. With the exception of a few, I rather not speak at all. Everything that dwells in a dawn to dark day says enough to the point where I prefer to stay to myself and just observe. I feel like there’s something wrong...
June 2011
7 posts
I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.
To my knowledge, it has been said that the saddest thing a human being will ever face in this lifetime is what might have been. But what about the person who is faced with what was, what may never happen, or what can no longer be? Granted, choosing the right path for each of us as individuals is never easy, I know. But the way I see it, it’s nothing more than a decision we make with only our...
“We all can use a little hope sometimes, you know? That feeling that...”
– Brooke Davis
“Forgive me if I st st stutter from all the clutter in my head. Nothing seems to...”
– Teddy Geiger